4 In The Morning

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)

Expressing myself~

Somehow, recently, I found that lyrics of songs helped to express what I feel more aptly. So...for now, I'm just going to post lyrics that reflect what I feel...Here's the first one:

Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da

A Poem from him to me

Stranger In The Distance


Away in the distance,
There she stood.
Her darkened mane waves,
Through the gentle wind it blows.
Like the evening stars,
Her pearly eyes they glow.
Her smile infectious,
As morning rays cross the horizon.
Here he stands,
Melted to the ground as she turns around.
Looking for a way in,
Looking for a way out.
Her gaze upon his,
A rush of ecstasy, a state of intoxic.
A stranger in the distance.


16/03/2007

It would have been our theme song~

I’ll be the light that shines the air
I’ll be the wind that drifts away your cloud
Never leave you alone in your bed
Here to take your hand, to guide you out of past.

I’ll be here to share your hopes and dreams
So you’ll never have to hide them away
I’ve been setting aside time
To think about the words I want to tell you someday

All I want to do is bring you back to love
I want to make it through with you back into love

I’ll be the stars that bright up your nights
I’ll be watching you from behind
Just turn around and you’ll find me there
Open your heart and you’ll see my signs

I’ll be here to shed your light
Not just somebody to get you through the night
And if you will
I could be your guiding light

All I want to do is bring you back to love
I want to make it through with you back into love
And if you could feel in your heart
I’ve always been in there waiting for your touch

There are moments I know you’re unsure
Or if all these are real
Lean on me
And let me be your inspiration, not just a negotiation

All I want to do is bring you back to love
I want to make it through with you back into love
Take my hand, let me show you the way
We could start over again
So I know you’ll be there in the end…

Those were the promises...

made for me to open my heart

I lost my way half way through

You were not there to show me the way

Way Back Into Love~

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

The False Goodbye Syndrome

Ever unexpectedly bumped into someone you don't know that well a few minutes later after you've just said a lovely warm farewell (complete with a hug or even a kiss?) and experienced the uneasiness & awkardness that comes with it? And wishing that you have waited a while more or loitered around before making your way home or anywhere else for that matters?

I have. And I thought it's just me. Finally found a name to cap on it (from a recent novel I read): "The False Goodbye Syndrome"

It was really funny to see it described perfectly in the book**. Picture this: After saying farewell a few minutes earlier, you unexpectedly bump into each other at the bus stop, mrt station or on the same stretch of road trying to hail a cab. There's really no plausible reason to explain this, but you can't help the mortification that whelms up. The pleasant and easy conversation you've been having only a few minutes earlier has disappeared totally and you can feel the change in mood....tensed, strained. And you're looking at the mrt tracks/road and praying: Come on train/bus/taxi, for Pete's sake, come on! While trying hard not to look at the person & focusing on your watch or attempting a weak smile from time to time.

Then when the transport finally comes, you say goodbye once more. But it doesn't feel as nice as the previous time and you're wondering if you should hug/kiss again and if you do, it feels fake and if you don't, you feel as if you've ended on a bad note. Taken from the book: "Like a souffle, a successful goodbye can really only be done once. A goodbye can't be reheated".

Of course, it's fiction and not official. But hey, doesn't sound too bad to give this a name. And this applies only to people you don't know well.

Do you suffer from the False Goodbye Syndrome too? :p

**By my favourite author Marian Keyes: "Anybody out there?"

Shape Run 2006

Participated in the Shape Run 2006 on July 16th. It’s Singapore’s first ever women-only competitive run. My first attempt too, in a competitive run ever since secondary school.

Pretty excited when I knew about the run and of course, the contents of the runner’s kit did its part to get me going :p. Managed to get Jo to participate with me.

Since I haven’t been running outdoors with Norman for quite sometime and I did all my running indoors (same goes for Jo, who hasn’t been running for a while), we came up with a training schedule. Hmm, however, we only followed the schedule for like…..2 weeks. One training per week. We ended up practicing on our own instead, haha.

Unfortunately, poor Jo came down with a bad cough just days before the run. Figuring that the run would worsen her condition, it was decided that she forfeit the participation fee.

To my surprise, Jo insisted going with me on the actual day to cheer me on. Good ol’ Jo! She can jolly well sleep in on a Sunday lo…So sweet of her :)

The run was great and there’s so many seasoned runners around. Looking at them kinda motivates you.

I think if I were to run the 10km route, I may really need an Ipod…coz it kinda gets boring running alone.

Took ages to queue for the running certificate and runner’s kit though. All in all, it was still fun. Went to Cali after that to shower (part of the perks of being a member, haha) and meet Sharon whom went for her usual class to go for our planned Sakae Sushi lunch. Come to think of it, the lunch was probably another motivation factor for me to complete my run, haha.

Yea! Mission completed! And look what I've got: a Zesprit Golden Kiwi! Haha.

Next personal goal: to run faster than this!:)

Who’s the handsomest of them all?

Met up with Han, Jo and Ling-a-ling last week. Went to Sizzler which reminded us of the good ol’ days. Remembered it was one of the places that we frequent when we were due for a treat, haha.

Anyway, when Han was driving us to meet Junjie after our late lunch, we had a most interesting discussion about………. delivery men. Both Han and Ling worked in logistics and since my company uses couriers services and get deliveries all the time, we get to interact with the delivery guys.

I don’t know how it started but in a while we were discussing which one of the logistic firms has the best looking delivery guys.

FedEx won, hands down. At least both Ling and I agreed on that. No offences to the others but out of all, the FedEx guys are really the cutest!! Haha. Just like the TV ads. And according to Ling, they have great bodies, and from my point of view, they have a really great smile! Well, I admit the ones I came across look pretty fit and toned too. So we were psyching Han to feedback to her company, provide training to improve their delivery guys’ image, haha.

Oh, come to think of it, I remembered another guy from DPEX who’s pretty charming too.

Hmm, now who’s the handsomest of them all? Now I can’t make up my mind….. :p